Some desires are thoughts that are fleeting, often idle
musings of no consequence, gone completely almost in the moment of their
conception. Others though are true desires and some are distressing,
obsessively hidden from others but impossible to hide from one’s self.
Particularly when those desires are sexually motivated and unconventional in
their nature. They have a way of being obsessively pursued, driven by the
compulsion to have them satiated.
Unconventional Desires is the diary of Victoria, whom
has two sides to her character. Her public persona is that of an ordinary girl,
a biology graduate with an ordinary job. The other side to her persona is a
character which is deeply buried in a desire that she considers dark and
obfuscates it from her friends, family and most of all from herself. She fears
this darkness that lives deep inside her mind, she does not understand it and
cannot accept its nature. So she represses it out of fear, fear of losing
herself to it and the fear of being rejected by those she knows and loves if
they ever saw it.
The darkness though is given light by a simple fictional
story she reads. This leads to a place where others live in this same darkness.
A darkness that most would consider unconventional if not abominable. Her
journey begins the moment she walks through the virtual door of an internet
chat room, a room which she knows very surely having passed into, she can never
leave and close the door behind her never to return. This room allows her to
open her mind to her desires. Brightening the light of her darkness and giving
motivation to her unconventional desire, the desire to submit to a man, to be
controlled by him and to feel pain at his hands for his pleasure and in that
giving receive her own pleasure.
She ultimately finds such a man to meet her desires and
fill the void in her darkness. He wines and dines her, brings her flowers and
chocolates, and is ever the gentleman, he opens doors for her. Doors that lead
her in to places where she is
willing suffer for him. Satisfying his need to control her and in return
gaining the control she needs to fulfill her desire. The physical objects of her
desire are the collars, gags, restraints, and whips he uses to meet her
physical and psychological needs, allowing her to accept him as her master and
lover.
Victoria Louise Sadler
My name is Victoria Louise Sadler, I live just outside of London England. I am a full time mother, wife, submissive and recently published author. I am a life sciences graduate though have not worked since having my daughter 10 years ago, because as a family we have the luxury of my husband earning enough to support all three of us. I have recently written my first book called Unconventional Desires which is the edited diary of my first year in the BDSM lifestyle as a submissive. I would love to think that I have brought pleasure to my readers with this book and given food for thought to those who have chosen to explore this alternative lifestyles which is the core element to my diary. Besides writing, reading and spending time at home with my family I love nothing more than a walk in the countryside and a glass of wine at the local village pub
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